The past few weeks have been very stressful. My parents are moving to PA clarion on the 28th of september and frankly im still nervous, sad, scared, and hurt. My mom tells me to smile because lately i havent been. People from work always ask me whats wrong and i say “Nothing”. The only person thats here for me is my girlfriend. Everyone else doesnt care. My dad thats in renton didnt even call me when he found out to see if i was okay. I mean, what fuckin dad does call their youngest son to see how hes doing… OH wait. He did call me a couple of days ago to see how i am… AFTER he asked me for a free FUCKING COMPUTER! DO i care anymore? yes…..  :( I always will, it sucks, its horrible, but thats how i feel. My brother has a bond with my dad that i will never have… Jealous? You bet… My mom and alan are the only ones left in the parenting category that i have.. but not anymore. They’re leaving and i cant do anything about it. Seeing my mom cry while telling me she will miss me killed me inside. It really did. She was crying and all i wanted to do was sob back, but i did’nt.. i couldnt. How do i feel? How am I? Why don’t i smile as much? Is there something wrong? This blows, but i will get through it, and i have an awesome girlfriend and 2nd family backin me up. Lets just hope it gets better.. Wish me luck :D

Word to ya mother