GQ?
So the past few days have been a little different. A bit real. Having no parents around has its pros and cons.
Pros:
1. Stay up tell whenever
2. Cook healthy
3. Do what ever i want.
Cons:
1. Little lonely
2. BILLS
3. No parents to ask how your day was.
4. No visits at work.
5. Lack of communication.
6. Distance
The question: Is them leaving really the best choice for me or just for them? I miss them more than they know and more than i ever thought i would. I figured they would be around all the time…The tough news is they are not. They are across the country and now im in washington with a brother, a lovely girlfriend, and myself. A tri-pod is the only thing holding me up right now. I’m just praying that i will be the one to succeed like my parents want. To get a nice job, great house, and wonderful family.
This might be me complaining or venting to the world about my problems, but “fuck it”. I know everyone goes through this sometime in there life, but why so early… Why am i getting seperated from my parents sooner than most people. Especially when im in college with a full time job… now its going to be harder. That is life though.. Someone once told me life sucks. I think life is what you make it, and i will not make it to be a disapointment, or a failure. I will triumph. I will succeed. With or without their help.
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Internet
Internet has not been so glorious until today. :D I got my own modem and router woot woot. Soooo anyone who wants to come over now and use my internet can hahaha. Im really glad and hopefully this will make my time go by faster so im not too lonely… I;ll be on here alot more for now on.
Here it goes…
The past few weeks have been very stressful. My parents are moving to PA clarion on the 28th of september and frankly im still nervous, sad, scared, and hurt. My mom tells me to smile because lately i havent been. People from work always ask me whats wrong and i say “Nothing”. The only person thats here for me is my girlfriend. Everyone else doesnt care. My dad thats in renton didnt even call me when he found out to see if i was okay. I mean, what fuckin dad does call their youngest son to see how hes doing… OH wait. He did call me a couple of days ago to see how i am… AFTER he asked me for a free FUCKING COMPUTER! DO i care anymore? yes….. :( I always will, it sucks, its horrible, but thats how i feel. My brother has a bond with my dad that i will never have… Jealous? You bet… My mom and alan are the only ones left in the parenting category that i have.. but not anymore. They’re leaving and i cant do anything about it. Seeing my mom cry while telling me she will miss me killed me inside. It really did. She was crying and all i wanted to do was sob back, but i did’nt.. i couldnt. How do i feel? How am I? Why don’t i smile as much? Is there something wrong? This blows, but i will get through it, and i have an awesome girlfriend and 2nd family backin me up. Lets just hope it gets better.. Wish me luck :D
Word to ya mother
